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[O hai. It's December Days time, and this year, I'm taking requests, since it's been a while and I have new people on the list and it's 2020, the year where everyone is both closer to and more distant from their friends and family. So if you have a thought you'd like me to talk about on one of these days, let me know and I'll work it into the schedule. That includes things like further asks about anything in a previous December Days tag, if you have any questions on that regard.]
Today's been a day of vacation and rest and reading through the Yuletide archive - I've made it somewhere into C so far, which is not terrible, although as with all Yuletides, I feel like I'm never goig to actually get through all of the ones that I want to read, because there's other things that I want to do with my time, like play games and read other things and do writing, like this. After this gets done, then I'm going to do the Snowflake Challenge in January, and by then, exchange season is up and running (not that it really stops, but a lot of exchanges try not to get across from Yuletide), and I might have another Fandom Trumps Hate bid to work on, and there's always the possibility that I might have an idea solely from my own head instead of writing to the prompt and specifications that I like doing for exchange fic. I try to keep myself busy with all sorts of things, even though that really only increases my pile of stuff that I want to do with the limited time that I have to do it with.
And, y'know, we're coming up on the end of this year, one that promises to be memorable and historic, and I'm sort of torn between the two ideas that suggested this year was the year that everyone was going to be able to get everything done, because we weren't going places and most of us, anyway, had Internet connections and an entire curriculum in Youtube or other tutorial videos so that we could finally start and complete that project that we'd been claiming we were going to get to once we had time, even if it was never going to be something that we did because there were lots of other things that were going to be prioritized over that new skill we kept thinking we were going to pick up, and the idea that says that the fact that you're alive is a miracle, and any further accomplisments that you made on top of surviving this year is gravy that you can be proud of as well.
( The answer is not either/or, of course )
So this was a year where, at least so far, we've survived it. And, on top of survival, which was pretty damn hard by itself, we kept to the schedule we've already established, and got all of our works in on time, including some new ones that got worked into the schedule. We got more confident about being able to do programming where we don't have all the answers, and more okay with the idea that "ish" is an okay result for things that can be ishy.
(Yes, I'm still worried that when I need to be able to take a criticism well and change, I'm going to end up making it about myself in unhelpful ways instead of being able to make the necessary changes and then go off and have whatever recriminations or feelings I need to have about it away from the people who will be affected by my having those feelings in public. But, y'know, practice the small things so that you can hopefull do it right when the big ones happen.)
Today's been a day of vacation and rest and reading through the Yuletide archive - I've made it somewhere into C so far, which is not terrible, although as with all Yuletides, I feel like I'm never goig to actually get through all of the ones that I want to read, because there's other things that I want to do with my time, like play games and read other things and do writing, like this. After this gets done, then I'm going to do the Snowflake Challenge in January, and by then, exchange season is up and running (not that it really stops, but a lot of exchanges try not to get across from Yuletide), and I might have another Fandom Trumps Hate bid to work on, and there's always the possibility that I might have an idea solely from my own head instead of writing to the prompt and specifications that I like doing for exchange fic. I try to keep myself busy with all sorts of things, even though that really only increases my pile of stuff that I want to do with the limited time that I have to do it with.
And, y'know, we're coming up on the end of this year, one that promises to be memorable and historic, and I'm sort of torn between the two ideas that suggested this year was the year that everyone was going to be able to get everything done, because we weren't going places and most of us, anyway, had Internet connections and an entire curriculum in Youtube or other tutorial videos so that we could finally start and complete that project that we'd been claiming we were going to get to once we had time, even if it was never going to be something that we did because there were lots of other things that were going to be prioritized over that new skill we kept thinking we were going to pick up, and the idea that says that the fact that you're alive is a miracle, and any further accomplisments that you made on top of surviving this year is gravy that you can be proud of as well.
Is this the year you did it all, or the year that you survived and are happy about that by itself?
( The answer is not either/or, of course )
So this was a year where, at least so far, we've survived it. And, on top of survival, which was pretty damn hard by itself, we kept to the schedule we've already established, and got all of our works in on time, including some new ones that got worked into the schedule. We got more confident about being able to do programming where we don't have all the answers, and more okay with the idea that "ish" is an okay result for things that can be ishy.
(Yes, I'm still worried that when I need to be able to take a criticism well and change, I'm going to end up making it about myself in unhelpful ways instead of being able to make the necessary changes and then go off and have whatever recriminations or feelings I need to have about it away from the people who will be affected by my having those feelings in public. But, y'know, practice the small things so that you can hopefull do it right when the big ones happen.)
