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I held something out from the last ball of links, because I thought it warranted a little futher introspection. It's a piece on the potentially terrifying reality that no matter how much you feel like you don't have power or are pretending, there is someone out there who looks up to you and who thinks you have that power. Which comes with an admonishment that because we have that power, we can't let our own feelings of inadequacy allow us to treat others cruelly or thoughtlessly.
It's slightly terrifying to think that someone might think of me as worth idolizing or thinking well of, because I'm not used to it, but also because I'm worried that I'll screw it up, or that I'm fooling myself and others about how good a person I am. Which requires a touch of unpacking, most likely, for full understanding.
( So, here's an attempt at explaining. )
Brains are weird.
It's slightly terrifying to think that someone might think of me as worth idolizing or thinking well of, because I'm not used to it, but also because I'm worried that I'll screw it up, or that I'm fooling myself and others about how good a person I am. Which requires a touch of unpacking, most likely, for full understanding.
( So, here's an attempt at explaining. )
Brains are weird.
