[This Year's December Days Theme is Community, and all the forms that it takes. If you have some suggestions about what communities I'm part of (or that you think I'm part of) that would be worth a look, let me know in the comments.]
People who struggle with imposter syndrome believe that they are undeserving of their achievements and the high esteem in which they are, in fact, generally held. They feel that they aren’t as competent or intelligent as others might think—and that soon enough, people will discover the truth about them.
( This worry that I am not as good as you think I am is one of my communities, too )
Having this imposter's feeling is a lot of shouting at people "Don't you get it? Past performance is no indication of future returns!" and having them look at you and say "Sure, but your past performance gives us no reason to doubt your future returns." Or "Your past performance is a lot better than you think it is." Or even "I like you anyway." That last one is pretty frustrating to someone who is trying to convince you they're an imposter, or trying to convince themselves they're an imposter, because there's nothing there to argue on the merits. The only argument that's there is to tell someone else their opinion about you is wrong. Which, when you're getting bitten hard by the brainweasels sieging you, yes, that's something you can try to argue. (And fail at.) Some exceedingly strange people even like you with all of the insecurities, worries, and certainty that you are going to expose yourself as the imposter any time now and, because of that, fuck things up so severely that the only option that person will have is to terminate any contact at all with you.
If Peter's right, though, then eventually we all get promoted to the level of our incompetence, and I suspect at that point, it's no longer a question of whether we think we're bad at the things that we're doing, it's that we end up being bad at it, and probably suffering from other things like burnout from trying to do a job that is actually beyond our competence and that makes us and the people around us cranky because we're not good at it. At that point, we're not fooling ourselves about what our real skills and others' opinions of us are.
People who struggle with imposter syndrome believe that they are undeserving of their achievements and the high esteem in which they are, in fact, generally held. They feel that they aren’t as competent or intelligent as others might think—and that soon enough, people will discover the truth about them.
( This worry that I am not as good as you think I am is one of my communities, too )
Having this imposter's feeling is a lot of shouting at people "Don't you get it? Past performance is no indication of future returns!" and having them look at you and say "Sure, but your past performance gives us no reason to doubt your future returns." Or "Your past performance is a lot better than you think it is." Or even "I like you anyway." That last one is pretty frustrating to someone who is trying to convince you they're an imposter, or trying to convince themselves they're an imposter, because there's nothing there to argue on the merits. The only argument that's there is to tell someone else their opinion about you is wrong. Which, when you're getting bitten hard by the brainweasels sieging you, yes, that's something you can try to argue. (And fail at.) Some exceedingly strange people even like you with all of the insecurities, worries, and certainty that you are going to expose yourself as the imposter any time now and, because of that, fuck things up so severely that the only option that person will have is to terminate any contact at all with you.
If Peter's right, though, then eventually we all get promoted to the level of our incompetence, and I suspect at that point, it's no longer a question of whether we think we're bad at the things that we're doing, it's that we end up being bad at it, and probably suffering from other things like burnout from trying to do a job that is actually beyond our competence and that makes us and the people around us cranky because we're not good at it. At that point, we're not fooling ourselves about what our real skills and others' opinions of us are.