Hrm. It's that time again.

[silveradept]

Tomorrow's either Red Day, or Viking Day, or some other sort of V day - escapes my mind at the moment. But don't be SAD if you're not taking part. If you feel the need, you can take a potshot or two in Norse (or some transliteration thereof - accurate? Maaaybe.) Or you could spend the whole day in the lab with some useful scientific materials.

Speaking of science (SCIENCE!), Phillip K. Dick is missing. Which is a real shame - I hope whomever got him gives him back. If P.K. Dick wandered off on his own, then I hope he finds a good A.I. programmer to help him out.

I feel a little more balanced than yesterday. It very well could have just been me on my favorite "woe" subject of not feeling like I'm producing anything tangibly cool with the talents I have. I did get work done on places wehre I felt stuck, and I think I'm going to have a bit of a flurry over the weekend compiling everything together and getting all the assignments and things completed. I think the midterm break is coming up soon... I've been too busy to really notice.

I'm trying hard not to be too concerned about whether or not I have the talent to do things on the level of the greats and just do things, creative or otherwise. I've been sketching in some classes, and while the results are definitely cartoony, that's not necessarily a horrible thing. It might just mean that I don't ever actually get around to being able to draw realistically without help. Truth be said, I might yet be able to do things anyway. There's no rule that says I have to do anything in one particular way. The funny part is, if I had fame, I'd probably be running from it. But since I don't have it, I'm running to try and get some. Some mistakes have to be experienced to be understood, I guess.

That, and I'm beginning to feel a little up against constraints. For as accepting as my college town is, I don't feel like it's a place where I could wear wings to class. Yet. That might be because of the people I'm around, though. Imagination is one of my strong suits, I suppose - that's a part of the reason why I want to work with kids, I think. Working with young ones gives you a sense of latitude - I can dress the part and nobody looks askance at me, so long as I'm reading the right story, or just because I'm the children's librarian. Eccentricity, or the freedom to be eccentric, is what seems to be missing at the moment. Might have to ask someone to figure out a way of making me some Haibane wings that I can wear around - something small that people will just get used to, you know? From there, the costuming decisions grow.

Maybe that's what I need to do.. learn how to sew, (and sew well) so that I can make the outfits I really want to wear. That may involve learning how to make armor as well. Yeah, there's the possibility of repercussions by some people who don't like the idea, but... there's something that just feels right for me about wandering around with a pair of wings on. Maybe it recaptures the sense of weirdness that I've ben coveting for a while - it'll get me noticed, perhaps. It's more than just looking to get noticed, though - it's doing what I want to do, and screw the consequences. Maybe now that I'm getting to the point where I'm going to have to start shouldering the burdens of life, I feel entitled to start showing off the way I feel like living it.

Comments

[bladespark.livejournal.com]

There's something rather freeing about going out with an appearance that's outside the norms. Of course it helps if your hobby is collecting funny looks. *smiles* But in all the tail and ear wearing I've ever done, the closest I've come to getting a bad reaction was the time I got wolf-whistled at by some guy who then asked if I was a freak. Being me, I said "why thank you! Yes I am a freak!" with a niiiiiiiiiiiiiice big grin. He he he.

I hear tell males get a slightly different reaction out of such things. But I don't imagine wings would be so completely beyond the pale that they'd be unacceptable in public.

Which all serves to remind me... I haven't had a tail on campus day in months. I'm overdue for one! *goes to pick out a nice one.* I think tomorrow is going to be a tail and ears day. Whee!

Good luck with the wings.

[aoanla.livejournal.com]

I think the issue is that women are "expected" to be more expressive about their internal state, including any "odd" things like a desire to wear a tail, and such like.
Men, the stereotype goes, are all self-contained and conformist - hence the guy wearing wings is looked at more oddly because he's being more feminine.

[silveradept]

That's an interesting take on it, caps. I get the feeling there's an explanation hiding behind the condensed statement there, and I'd like to hear it.

[silveradept]

Have fun with the ears and tail. If I manage to scrape together some free funds that I don't put into other things, I might send some of them out your way to make me some nice small wings or something.

[yarha.livejournal.com]

If you feel the need, you can take a potshot or two in Norse

A Norse is a Norse is a Norse, of course!

Yarha, Mr. Ethelred

[eleme.livejournal.com]

I hear you. Working with kids does give one a sense of latitude - to be creative and imaginative. Where else would I be able to say that I'm a sneaky dragon? Sure, the kids looked at me funny the first time, but I just told them that deep down inside I was and they were pretty cool with it. Of course if I had had a costume, they would have thought it was awesome, lol.

In anycase, I can play the part - be a sneaky dragon, be a detective, give out code words, be goofy and dance - whatever I feel like being. And I love it!

Hope you can find something similar :)

[silveradept]

Well, if I find the right library with a similar idea to mine about costuming and making the service good, then I should be able to fit right in with strange costume and other such things. I'm hoping I find them, too.