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Today in retrospect.
Apr. 22nd, 2005 12:42 amOkay, so today I was going for a little different idea. I was trying to see whether I could get the Seven Deadly Sins Bingo in one day, instead of in a week as it usually says. To start out with, since I was at work, I think I covered Sloth pretty well. When my bread molded on me to make sandwiches, Wrath was taken care of. In reading the articles today, there was a certain envy of the Johnson Cult, so I've got three before I even made it to lunch. Well, then I was talking to the guy who beat me in the quote battle, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jasonfranklin about lunchtime.
"What's that you have?" I said, pointing to his sandwich. "It's a roast beef on a bun." he said, but I couldn't really make it out in between the chewing and such. "I'm sorry, I don't speak glutton." He swallowed, and then repeated the phrase. "Ah. Well, I'm trying to get Gluttony on my Bingo card, and since you've got an in with the Caterer's Guild, I was hoping you could spot me something rich and sinful." He wasn't particularly happy with the request. "I can only give that kind of stuff to members." I wheedled and begged, but he was adamant. Finally, he shouted, "Well, you're not in the fucking club!" and left. So Gluttony was going to be a problem. Right until I spotted the cookies. Then I was set. Four down, three to go. Well, I went to the Lightworks film festival, and they had some free stuff, and so I took a lot of it. Maybe a little avaricious. Hopefully I can sell them for decent bucks. Five, but time was running out. So I hurried to the trombone slide show (A year-in-review sort of montage), where I was reminded of the attractiveness of the female members of the trombone section. Six down, only one more to go... and I suppose the fact that I was damn proud of having gotten that far by then makes an even seven. Bingo. I'll turn my card into the new Pope and collect on my prize, which was supposedly a lifetime supply of indulgences.
In other news, I think I might have posted an article about how alpha (a particularly important constant) might be changing significantly? Well, other people, using different methods, say that alpha's staying put. So now I don't know what to think.
The new food pyramid plans have been unveiled, and I must say I'm quite happy at the choice of construction materials. Maybe that will help the problem.
As if anyone didn't already know, as a Water sign, my element would be... Water! Shock!
Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around you and are in tune with the world around. You observe it but rarely interfere. Because of your shy and timid nature you will not have so many friends in your life. But then again, large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are comfortable on your own and are reserved to others who you don't know or know very little of. You know everyone out there does not want to be your friend, and knowing that is good. However, people who don't know you that well think that you are cold and distant since you don't want to talk to them. Although you mean no harm, you can't always be perfectly understood in the world. No one can. For life in general, you are quite serene with even if there are some things you don't like. Your love-life is not so full of girls, but if you flirted more with the ones you were interested in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies you choose are calmer ones, you are no party guy that likes to drink and make-out with three or more girls in one night. Reading a book or swimming is more your thing.
What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answers!]
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And that description actually shifts into the Extended Discussion for tonight. Those who have no intent on listening to me self-analyze (and probably self-flagellate), you can safely move on to the next entry on your friends list.
I'm shy. You might not think that considering the nature of my interaction with many of my internet organizations and places that I've been a part of for a while, or places that I have a friend in who can introduce me to others, but truth is, I'm really rather wallflowery. I don't think it's some sort of Social Anxiety, where I just don't want to go out of my cave and meet new people (if that were true, I wouldn't have wandered around with Morton's List at the last convention), it's just that I'm very nervous around new situations. It's an irrational fear of screwing up some matter of etiquette, I think. (I still wonder whether I goofed badly at the furry bowling thing that BT referenced earlier.) It may be tied into Impostor Syndrome, because I'm usually downplaying what accomplishments I might have, attributing them to other causes.
The thing is, once I get to know people and get a feel for the group, I loosen up considerably. There's less fear of accidentally screwing up, and so I can relax a bit more. That may also be why I don't do a whole lot on the dating scene - paralyzed by fear, of sorts, at first, where the appearance of being relaxed is probably the most important part to drawing someone's attention. It may also work against me that any prospective date-ables in my friends circle have become sufficiently good friends that the dating bit might be out of the question by the time I would screw up the courage to ask them out. (This doesn't count the large amount of female friends that I have that are in relationships with other people.)
So I don't go out to large social events a lot, where I'm just there amongst a group of random people. I need an icebreaker or a common thread somewhere to use in case of anxiety. I'm just, well, strange. Or so I think. Might be one of those bits where I'm judging myself on the inside and everyone else on the outside, so naturally they all appear more confident and self-assured than I do. I guess I don't know what to think about it. Maybe some of you have helpful advice on what to do about it, if anything. It may be a matter of someone with a clue-by-four large enough to get my attention and patience enough to hit me with it until the lesson sinks in.
Anyway, bed for now, some new stuff tomorrow - actually, I could use someone to take a glance at my paper draft and tell me where I need to fill in details and flesh things out - it's a bit skeletal, even on page four of five. So let me know.
jasonfranklin about lunchtime. "What's that you have?" I said, pointing to his sandwich. "It's a roast beef on a bun." he said, but I couldn't really make it out in between the chewing and such. "I'm sorry, I don't speak glutton." He swallowed, and then repeated the phrase. "Ah. Well, I'm trying to get Gluttony on my Bingo card, and since you've got an in with the Caterer's Guild, I was hoping you could spot me something rich and sinful." He wasn't particularly happy with the request. "I can only give that kind of stuff to members." I wheedled and begged, but he was adamant. Finally, he shouted, "Well, you're not in the fucking club!" and left. So Gluttony was going to be a problem. Right until I spotted the cookies. Then I was set. Four down, three to go. Well, I went to the Lightworks film festival, and they had some free stuff, and so I took a lot of it. Maybe a little avaricious. Hopefully I can sell them for decent bucks. Five, but time was running out. So I hurried to the trombone slide show (A year-in-review sort of montage), where I was reminded of the attractiveness of the female members of the trombone section. Six down, only one more to go... and I suppose the fact that I was damn proud of having gotten that far by then makes an even seven. Bingo. I'll turn my card into the new Pope and collect on my prize, which was supposedly a lifetime supply of indulgences.
In other news, I think I might have posted an article about how alpha (a particularly important constant) might be changing significantly? Well, other people, using different methods, say that alpha's staying put. So now I don't know what to think.
The new food pyramid plans have been unveiled, and I must say I'm quite happy at the choice of construction materials. Maybe that will help the problem.
As if anyone didn't already know, as a Water sign, my element would be... Water! Shock!
Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around you and are in tune with the world around. You observe it but rarely interfere. Because of your shy and timid nature you will not have so many friends in your life. But then again, large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are comfortable on your own and are reserved to others who you don't know or know very little of. You know everyone out there does not want to be your friend, and knowing that is good. However, people who don't know you that well think that you are cold and distant since you don't want to talk to them. Although you mean no harm, you can't always be perfectly understood in the world. No one can. For life in general, you are quite serene with even if there are some things you don't like. Your love-life is not so full of girls, but if you flirted more with the ones you were interested in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies you choose are calmer ones, you are no party guy that likes to drink and make-out with three or more girls in one night. Reading a book or swimming is more your thing.
What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answers!]
brought to you by Quizilla
And that description actually shifts into the Extended Discussion for tonight. Those who have no intent on listening to me self-analyze (and probably self-flagellate), you can safely move on to the next entry on your friends list.
I'm shy. You might not think that considering the nature of my interaction with many of my internet organizations and places that I've been a part of for a while, or places that I have a friend in who can introduce me to others, but truth is, I'm really rather wallflowery. I don't think it's some sort of Social Anxiety, where I just don't want to go out of my cave and meet new people (if that were true, I wouldn't have wandered around with Morton's List at the last convention), it's just that I'm very nervous around new situations. It's an irrational fear of screwing up some matter of etiquette, I think. (I still wonder whether I goofed badly at the furry bowling thing that BT referenced earlier.) It may be tied into Impostor Syndrome, because I'm usually downplaying what accomplishments I might have, attributing them to other causes.
The thing is, once I get to know people and get a feel for the group, I loosen up considerably. There's less fear of accidentally screwing up, and so I can relax a bit more. That may also be why I don't do a whole lot on the dating scene - paralyzed by fear, of sorts, at first, where the appearance of being relaxed is probably the most important part to drawing someone's attention. It may also work against me that any prospective date-ables in my friends circle have become sufficiently good friends that the dating bit might be out of the question by the time I would screw up the courage to ask them out. (This doesn't count the large amount of female friends that I have that are in relationships with other people.)
So I don't go out to large social events a lot, where I'm just there amongst a group of random people. I need an icebreaker or a common thread somewhere to use in case of anxiety. I'm just, well, strange. Or so I think. Might be one of those bits where I'm judging myself on the inside and everyone else on the outside, so naturally they all appear more confident and self-assured than I do. I guess I don't know what to think about it. Maybe some of you have helpful advice on what to do about it, if anything. It may be a matter of someone with a clue-by-four large enough to get my attention and patience enough to hit me with it until the lesson sinks in.
Anyway, bed for now, some new stuff tomorrow - actually, I could use someone to take a glance at my paper draft and tell me where I need to fill in details and flesh things out - it's a bit skeletal, even on page four of five. So let me know.
