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Aug. 15th, 2005 09:44 pmWell, sort of. Book I ordered came in - considerably less time than I thought it would be. Work is keeping me busy in punctuated bursts. Although recently here and there, I'm starting to get headaches there and here at home - motion seems to be the cause of the feeling, but I have no idea what's causing me to be motion-sensitive. Maybe it's a nutritional deficit somewhere (I eat, plenty, but I don't know whether I actually eat the right stuff at any given time) that I'm suffering from. I don't think I'm stressing myself out... consciously. Could be subliminal stress accumulated by the mere realization that one of my housemates is home. It's like I'm waiting for him to snap at me subconsciously. So I could be trying to build up stress that way. Just need to get the blood flowing again, quite literally.
In intuition Two-space, I'm balanced. Sixty-two percent both ways. Apparently, that's a little weird. A different test has me pegged as a Bodhisattva of some sort. If that's true, I need to believe it firmly enough to make the anxieties lessen. It's less than a month to the beginning of my studies as a grad student. Maybe that's helping to accumulate stress?
Interesting thought for today - according to at least one website, I have crossing influences in my astrological pattern. It was actually rather humorous to read one that said "will do well in X" and the other say "will have problems in X", and they alternated back and forth down the line for a lot of issues. So I am a walking contradiction. It's actually good to know that. Means I don't have to worry about making sense anymore. WHEE!
TK poked my thoughts slightly in response to a question-riddled meme (of which I don't think I know people enough to be good at doing) when he asked me "When/How did you get started on your quest for the ideal faith?" The short answers are "About seventh grade" and "The faith I had didn't permit the conception of magic to exist as anything other than zOMG DEVIL-WORSHIP!." The more detailed answers turn the clock back a few years and say "To find the magic." Yes, it's shorter. It's also more detailed and nuanced. It's also why I've been in a bit of a holding pattern for more than a few years about the matter. Naturally, nobody can agree on the nature of the stuff, much less how to work with it and what results, if any, are to be expected. Much as I'd like to do some of the stuff my character does at a whim in the various fictional universes, we haven't unlocked those secrets yet. I'm content with what we have, though. I just have to be secure enough to think about trying it. Once I find the magic, I'll be at home, wherever I am.
Anyway. To bed we go, perhaps some errands while out at lunch tomorrow. And hopefully, the headaches will go away. And take the stress with them. I don't need to be harp-string taut three weeks out of class.
In intuition Two-space, I'm balanced. Sixty-two percent both ways. Apparently, that's a little weird. A different test has me pegged as a Bodhisattva of some sort. If that's true, I need to believe it firmly enough to make the anxieties lessen. It's less than a month to the beginning of my studies as a grad student. Maybe that's helping to accumulate stress?
Interesting thought for today - according to at least one website, I have crossing influences in my astrological pattern. It was actually rather humorous to read one that said "will do well in X" and the other say "will have problems in X", and they alternated back and forth down the line for a lot of issues. So I am a walking contradiction. It's actually good to know that. Means I don't have to worry about making sense anymore. WHEE!
TK poked my thoughts slightly in response to a question-riddled meme (of which I don't think I know people enough to be good at doing) when he asked me "When/How did you get started on your quest for the ideal faith?" The short answers are "About seventh grade" and "The faith I had didn't permit the conception of magic to exist as anything other than zOMG DEVIL-WORSHIP!." The more detailed answers turn the clock back a few years and say "To find the magic." Yes, it's shorter. It's also more detailed and nuanced. It's also why I've been in a bit of a holding pattern for more than a few years about the matter. Naturally, nobody can agree on the nature of the stuff, much less how to work with it and what results, if any, are to be expected. Much as I'd like to do some of the stuff my character does at a whim in the various fictional universes, we haven't unlocked those secrets yet. I'm content with what we have, though. I just have to be secure enough to think about trying it. Once I find the magic, I'll be at home, wherever I am.
Anyway. To bed we go, perhaps some errands while out at lunch tomorrow. And hopefully, the headaches will go away. And take the stress with them. I don't need to be harp-string taut three weeks out of class.
