Was a good night tonight.
Nov. 9th, 2005 11:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silveradeptI was productive today in matter schoolwork-like, in collecting some data that I will need to write a big paper. If, by any chance, any of you should know any sorts of books that teach young children (underneath the Y.A. publishing threshold) about Wicca or more standard "occult" things from a non-christian perspective, could you drop me a name of the book and the author? I'm trying to write a bit of a paper about the apparent dearth of books and the ramifications of that (one of them being "Why are people complaining about occultism being marketed to children if there are no effective children's books about it?") Am also trying not to get stuck in late nights trying to bang my head against a paper that doesn't budge. I'll get that bit done and possibly submit some sort of draft at my TA by next week. Then I can refine it and get the other thing that has to get done, done, along with the six hundred other things. Now is not the time to panic. I'm still two weeks out from a deadline. Some of my colleagues probably have not even started their work yet. Now is not the time to panic. (So why am I?)
While I was out being productive, apparently quite a few other people were, too, and not all of it "progress" in terms of a liberal viewpoint. The Intelligent Design crowd won a major victory in Kansas, successfully convincing the state education board to mandate the inclusion of intelligent design in state science standards. I note that the article quotes someone as using the term "Darwin fundamentalists" to describe those who believe in evolution as the sole acceptable standard. It is a strange term to hear, admittedly, and my first reaction to laugh it off as silly. Then again, it might be accurate.
Dover, Pennsylvania, however, took a dim view of ID and ousted all the ID-supporting board members. You win some, you lose some. Many on the Left would rather that be "you win some, you lost most." There were Democratic governors elected and Republican governor's agendas rejected. Maine held on to a provision that made sure gender identity and sexual orientation are still grounds for discrimination.
The crown glory and most Ignoble of them all is that Texas passed a constitutional amendment that can be interpreted to have outlawed all forms of marriage. Talk about a bait-and-switch. We'll see who's the first person to get sued or bring suit over the matter.
There is a meme buffer between this and tonight's self-introspection. Thus, be presented with...
Well, he is usually a dragon-form, so I suppose that's an inner victory for my winged one.
There you are. I was having a strange conversation with myself - mostly in text (amazing how I can imagine what sort of formatting my inner voices take...) about the things that we're worried about, if that. Good fodder for my memoirs (or my psychoanalysis when I go insane, whichever you like.)
The set-up is, we're talking about what I expect in terms of the dating realm...
You know, I just don't like changing my appearance as a potential attractor of people. I've not been big on using the outside image as a lure.
(Well, not all the time, anyway. You'll dress up if you're going out, but we don't do it as a rule.)
Yeah. I don't care about my outside appearance because I don't want people to judge me on it - and I hope that I don't judge other people on it too much.
(You're probably doing okay - you generally think, "Hmm. Attractive to the body and pleasing to the eye - she's probably be a good lay physically, but I'd have to get to know her better to make a final decision on that.")
And I'm okay with that. Although it does make for the occasional brain-split where body wants a lay and brain has to justify why it's not worth it. Generally both parties would agree on some solution and the crisis is averted.
(Right. So what we want, then, is for someone to interpret the right cues that make us attractive and discard the wrong ones that don't, and be able to see the intricate person inside. Bit of an unrealistic expectation, isn't it? After all, it's not like someone's going to be able to pick you up as the complex person you are right from your appearance, especially if you don't put thought into how you want to communicate all that depth on a level that can be easily read.)
We're in a bit of a catch-22, aren't we?
(Yeah. But are we resigned to the further realization that we're going to be looking for a rare person who's either able or willing to look past our first impression?)
Probably not. Which is why we get in those fights in the first place. So what do we do about this? We don't care enough to put effort into making our image more attractive, because we feel like we'd be putting on a false face, but we're not resigned enough that we're probably not going to find many people going about it this way.
It was about this time that we decided that was a question best left to the ether and the people around on the net. Or elsewhere. We're searching for acceptance of what we are, and we're not entirely sure we've found it in places that we'd like it to be. So perhaps if we learn to accept ourselves, and get acceptance from people, we'll resolve the issue.
While I was out being productive, apparently quite a few other people were, too, and not all of it "progress" in terms of a liberal viewpoint. The Intelligent Design crowd won a major victory in Kansas, successfully convincing the state education board to mandate the inclusion of intelligent design in state science standards. I note that the article quotes someone as using the term "Darwin fundamentalists" to describe those who believe in evolution as the sole acceptable standard. It is a strange term to hear, admittedly, and my first reaction to laugh it off as silly. Then again, it might be accurate.
Dover, Pennsylvania, however, took a dim view of ID and ousted all the ID-supporting board members. You win some, you lose some. Many on the Left would rather that be "you win some, you lost most." There were Democratic governors elected and Republican governor's agendas rejected. Maine held on to a provision that made sure gender identity and sexual orientation are still grounds for discrimination.
The crown glory and most Ignoble of them all is that Texas passed a constitutional amendment that can be interpreted to have outlawed all forms of marriage. Talk about a bait-and-switch. We'll see who's the first person to get sued or bring suit over the matter.
There is a meme buffer between this and tonight's self-introspection. Thus, be presented with...
You are Bahamut! You scored 26 good or evil, 13 spirituality, 1 power, and 10 intelligence! |
Do you hear that? Something on the horizon stirs a cyclone from thin air, clouds boil and darken, the air grows chill as an unmistakable sound pierces the air. The clouds part and a stream of pure white light streaks the sky, obliterating anything it touches, sparking countless explosions and drawing both gasps of terror and screams of agony in chorus. Granted, Bahamut has been known to play both sides, but he's usually on the side of good. He's extremely old, very wise, and lacking none of the power he wielded long ago. Basically he's a demi-god, but for our purposes he's the embodiment of all the best traits - intelligence, spirit, strength and good. Appearing in practically every single Final Fantasy in some form or other, Bahamut is synonymous with not only power, but strength of will, wisdom and strength of character. I must applaud you, test taker, for you are in a class all your own. If you really measure up to Bahamut's impressive list of attributes, you're alright in my book. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| Link: The Who are you in the FF Universe Test written by Helbereth on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test |
Well, he is usually a dragon-form, so I suppose that's an inner victory for my winged one.
There you are. I was having a strange conversation with myself - mostly in text (amazing how I can imagine what sort of formatting my inner voices take...) about the things that we're worried about, if that. Good fodder for my memoirs (or my psychoanalysis when I go insane, whichever you like.)
The set-up is, we're talking about what I expect in terms of the dating realm...
You know, I just don't like changing my appearance as a potential attractor of people. I've not been big on using the outside image as a lure.
(Well, not all the time, anyway. You'll dress up if you're going out, but we don't do it as a rule.)
Yeah. I don't care about my outside appearance because I don't want people to judge me on it - and I hope that I don't judge other people on it too much.
(You're probably doing okay - you generally think, "Hmm. Attractive to the body and pleasing to the eye - she's probably be a good lay physically, but I'd have to get to know her better to make a final decision on that.")
And I'm okay with that. Although it does make for the occasional brain-split where body wants a lay and brain has to justify why it's not worth it. Generally both parties would agree on some solution and the crisis is averted.
(Right. So what we want, then, is for someone to interpret the right cues that make us attractive and discard the wrong ones that don't, and be able to see the intricate person inside. Bit of an unrealistic expectation, isn't it? After all, it's not like someone's going to be able to pick you up as the complex person you are right from your appearance, especially if you don't put thought into how you want to communicate all that depth on a level that can be easily read.)
We're in a bit of a catch-22, aren't we?
(Yeah. But are we resigned to the further realization that we're going to be looking for a rare person who's either able or willing to look past our first impression?)
Probably not. Which is why we get in those fights in the first place. So what do we do about this? We don't care enough to put effort into making our image more attractive, because we feel like we'd be putting on a false face, but we're not resigned enough that we're probably not going to find many people going about it this way.
It was about this time that we decided that was a question best left to the ether and the people around on the net. Or elsewhere. We're searching for acceptance of what we are, and we're not entirely sure we've found it in places that we'd like it to be. So perhaps if we learn to accept ourselves, and get acceptance from people, we'll resolve the issue.
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Date: 2005-11-10 08:31 am (UTC)