Hmm...

So today was fairly unproductive as well. I probably should get more inclined to the job hunt, with finals right around the corner and all that. But it was nice to take a day or two off.

I downloaded the beta of a game called Knight Online. Got Roomie N involved, too. Could be good. Could be very addictive. But I got out today. The Bones v. Horns Kickball Klassic ended with a resounding victory for the bones. We took the lead in the first with 4 and never looked back. That was a lot of fun.

Watched the Wings game today as well. It'll be a good highlight reel, especially the fights right near the end of the game. Hopefully this means the Wings are getting into the playoff machine mode. Calgary's goalie continues to hold the Flames in most games.

Tomorrow is probably the last good off-day I'll have. Oh, well, no worries and all that. It should all work out, I hope.

Oh, yeah. Just remembered this. Was playing a different online game, and drew attention because I spoke in complete sentences when commenting on my own lack of shooting ability. One of my opponents said, "this is gb not grammar school". I said, "Whattabout it?" His reply: "you're a nerd if you do that"

Am I missing the point here? Or am I just an old relic that remembers a time before LOL was a description of everything that might be remotely funnny? It's stuff of that nature that makes me want to become some sort of grammar nazi on the kiddies so that they learn to speak and write the language properly, and then understand how to do it shorthand and what sort of abuse it really is to do it that way.

But then again, I'm just a nerd. Who'd listen to me from that generation, anyway?

Well....

You know things are bad when even going to bed doesn't sound like it will solve anything.

So my life is a little bit problematic at the moment. I think it's hinging on the whole "Will I get a job that makes enough for me to continue with my schooling, and will I have to work into the fall and winter to be able to do so (the answer is looking more and more like a yes...)?" I guess, maybe the real question is "Will I be able to fulfill all the shit that I've managed to sign myself up for?" Because right now it's looking more than I'm the one who's going to crack before the world decides to let off some of the pressure.

Although, in perspective, Roommate N's graduating (if his final project is acceptable) and is having the same sort of problems regarding the job market, and he's got a degree. Even so, I'd like to think I have a small right to be nervous about my own prospects. Roommate S, however, has her summer prospects locked up, so I suppose I should be happy for that, at least.

Maybe it's because I have so many potential things to worry about that haven't managed to become actual or resolve themselves that I'm so worried about. Once, perhaps, they start falling into place, (In Goddess we trust, but a nudge here and there would be appreciated) I won't be quite so edgy.

I really need to stop being so nervous. It's putting a cramp in my style. Literally. I just picked one up while writing this journal entry. Owch.

Thus, even going to bed sounds like a bad premise. Although finals don't resume until Tuesday, I have two review sessions that I should attend tomorrow to ensure that I'm not going to get totally turned around my them. Finals right now are the most concrete things I have working for me. Hopefully by the end of those I'll have some other concrete things to work with. So, would someone kindly point me in the right direction so that I can find my happy life again, please?

Side, yet somewhat related note: torakiyoshi, would like to talk to you.