The Internet Confessional

[silveradept]

“Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world.”

I suspect this statement is true. Many of us carry around things inside of us that are traumatic, either to ourselves or to others. Finding someone to confide those traumas and fears in is a large part of our searches for companionship, for love, and for intimate partners. Clergy, especially those of religions where sin is an important thing, are often tasked with the hearing of secrets, and then with the further task of carrying those secrets with them for the rest of their lives. In the places specially designed for the release of secrets, the walls hold the confessions of all types of people. The Internet now makes it possible for one place of secrets to hold the confessions of a multitude worldwide, like PostSecret does.

Not that we ever think the Internet will run out of places for people to post secrets or confessions, but we thought that having a few more spots wouldn’t hurt any. So, for those who wish to unload their hearts or minds, or see what they can craft to shock or elicit sympathy from others, the following is offered:

Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, what you think of me, your parents, boyfriend, anything. Just make it honest. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you’d like. If you wish, then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say.

Remember to post anonymously, please. The confessional is ruined if the priest or keeper starts blabbing who it was to others.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

After a lot of thinking, I've come to the conclusion that I've only ever fallen in love with one person. That person never returned those feelings in the slightest, but eventually became friends with me out of what I believe was guilt (I didn't take the turn-down very well, to say the least). We haven't seen each other very much since graduation, but among other things we have discussed what happened before over the occasional chat session. She gets defensive whenever the conversation even so much as flirts with bringing up that subject, though, so I learned to avoid it in order to spare her the trouble. However, I cannot avoid it, and I don't think she can, either. She remembers what happened, and the subtext of my crush saturates any and all of our meetings for both of us. For me, the feeling is disappointment, and I can live with that. However, I don't want to make her life any more complicated and stressful by introducing unneeded awkwardness into her life with my mere presence.

So after a lot of thinking, I've come to the conclusion that the only thing I can do for the woman I love is to not bother her and pray she can find happiness without me, because she could never find happiness with me.